Please keep talking here...and please see your doctor, hon! It's great that you know you need to change - but with a lot of people, including me, it didn't happen without some expert guidance! My best thinking got me to where I was - and it's okay when changing is not a do-it-yourself job.

You might have one of those marvellous 'chemical imbalances' - easily treated. Please check this out.

Don't isolate with 'all the other things'.

You are #1 - take care of you!