Oh Liz, I'm crying reading your post, I'm so sad, it does bring back memories of us taking in our 15 year old Schnauzer Kona two years ago, I know exactly how you feel. Buddy is in a better place right now without pain, and I know he will be waiting for you just as I know Kona is waiting for us. I can feel your pain, but Buddy would want you to go on with your life and someday you will look back and laugh at his antics as I do thinking about Kona. Please take care of yourself and get some much needed rest.
Jackie