When I first woke up this morning, I thought about this post and felt embarrassed that I had been so emotional and let so much out.. but after reading through all your words of support and understanding, I'm so glad I did. I was in tears reading all the responses, but they are "good" tears this time instead of sorrowful. Each post has both comforted and suffused me with more strength to bear up to all that is going on. Today is a new day, a clean slate, and it will be a better day and I will be stronger than I was yesterday. It is an unbelievable feeling to realize how many out there care. Thank you all for reminding me again what an amazing community this is.