My heart is breaking after reading this Jess. I wish I were near you so I could give you a big hug every time you need one. It's so frustrating to see you in this much pain and I can't do anything. As if you haven't been through enough, now you have no insurance? Please PM me if I can help you in any way. How can you work two jobs? It must be almost impossible. I'm wondering if you have any support groups you can join in your area. I had to do that myself after my divorce. It was the best thing I ever did. I became a new person. I pray that you get some help and peace in your life right away. A person as good as you are should never have to endure such pain and hardship. I'm always here for you. Your friend, Terry