Ocean is an angel. So that part hasn't changed.
This is devastating. I didn't know him, but I'm keeping him in my heart, anyway. When I saw his pic. the first time, when you first got him, i saved it. No one knew he wasn't healthy at the time. When you are up to it I hope you'll come back here for support and tell us what's going on. It's not your fault.
My PM box is always open.
******BIG HUG*******