Very bad news.

I didn't want to make a post just yet, as I didn't want to seem dramatic and attention seeking, but I have to tell you all.

When I got up this morning, my mum told me Zsa-Zsa had her eyes shut again. She told me to keep an eye on her as it could be a signal that the eye is going to bleed again. My parents are both at work and my brother is still in school so I'm in the house on my own, and I went downstairs to see her. I won't lie, she looks defeated. Due to being ill, she hasn't cleaned herself much and there are terrible matts in her fur. Her eyes are glued shut and there's a horrible, thick mucus-like stuff dripping from both eyes. And she's just laying in her basket, she's not touched her food, she's used the litterbox once and had a tiny drink but nothing more. After I'd had a shower, I took her outside with me to have a sit under the parasol. She sat on my lap for a bit, then I put her down to see what she would do. She walked a few steps and practically collapsed on the spot. I don't know if she had the strength to get up again. I took her back inside and put her just outside her basket, and she took very tentative steps back in it, and she's just laid there ever since. I don't know if she's in pain, but there's no doubt she's suffering. My mum came home on her lunch break to see how she's getting on, and we both think she's worsened in a couple of hours. If we take her to the vets, we know what they'll say, and both of us now think perhaps that would be the kindest thing to do. If she's still here tomorrow, really, we have no choice. We've tried everything and hoped in everything, and she's such a beautiful girl it is cruel to let her wither away to nothing. And we are going on holiday very soon, we have to make up our mind about what to do by Sunday, as we couldn't just leave her to... die a slow death. I am crying my eyes out. Zsa-Zsa's made some miracles happen before but this time something is seriously wrong. I see no way out now and I fear the worst.

You know, the most heart-wrenching thing is she's still purring.