I am so sorry...It is hard when there isn't a clear why. You gave (give) them love while they were with you. I know losing each one is painful...horribly painful, but I hope that in time you find that the love shared has enriched your heart more than wounded it.

Please find ways to nurture yourself. You've gone through so much you must be running on near empty...and I know for me that makes one so vulnerable to depression on top of grief.

You are such a blessing to the animals... please take care of yourself as if you were one of them.