Like many have said, Gina, at least you know that you did everything possible for them. No one else could have, or would have, done more.

I know how you feel about the vets that you're still paying. Sometimes its so easy to think that you're making their Mercedes payments when you pay those bills.. or their next vacation to Hawaii and here your babies are gone anyway. But you can't keep feeling that way. It'll eat you up inside.

I spent the whole morning reading about Miles (I feel like I've known him his whole life now) from when you first got him right up until the end of his remarkable life. What a treasure he was! Is.. because you know he's in God's hands now and he loves them more than we ever could.

You can't let this get you down! Miles' life was worth so much more!! After all he had been through, his body was weakened, his kidneys were too small and his nine lives were just worn out. No doctor could have saved him, I'm sure, but you gave it your all, just as he did.

You were spared the agony of watching him fail. He hid that from you, knowing that you'd be so upset, so please don't torture yourself. Handling the grief is hard enough on its own.

Console yourself with the knowledge that your living little ones need you so much. Be strong for them. They grieve, too, and they need you.