Too Upset ..

[catmandu]

I know what you mean Gina.
BJ the Siamese got up one afternoon staggered around and as I was calling the Vet, he passed on.
And Tubby 2, was lying there apparently asleep.
If I hadnt of touched him, to give him Temptations, I dont know when I would have found out.
Gin you love your Cats so much, and I know its hard for you.
Hopefully your Vet will let you pay when you can.
I know my Vet would.
The best of luck to you and your Cats.

[AbbyMom]

Gina,
I have read your post three times and I'm still not sure what to say except that I'm so sorry about your cats and to send you cyber hugs.

As far as the bills go, yes, that seems a sad reminder. But you can also know that you did everything you could for your babies.

Your dreams sounds like a reflection of your worries, not a prediction of the future.

You seem to be going through a very, very rough period in your life. I pray that it gets better starting now, today, and that all your babies are safe and healthy. Shower them with love.

Pat

[KitCat]

I have been hoping for things to go better for you, because you have had more hard times than anyone should have to bear. Even though I have never met you, I share your tears. No one can answer why, but know that your friends here support you.

[sandragonfly]

thank you all three so very much. I try to feel a bit better, hardly can with mysterious miseries you have to live with. gary, I didn't realize how so much I loved them until they each took a big piece from my heart. the piece gets bigger when you do not know why.

I think it was more frustrated where I took each of my little guys to more than one, two or three different emergency rooms for different opinion and they all couldn't find anything, anything wrong with them. especially after leukemia, FLV, colon bloodworks, x-rays, GI bariums and much more. all they asked me to bring the guys back home to keep them warm and before we knew, they just gave up their little heart the next few days.

now I think, what is this word, veterarian is really??

I don't see how this can stop bothering me.

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

((((((((HUGS for you, dear Gina!!!!!!!))))))))

[Terminalvelocity]

Like many have said, Gina, at least you know that you did everything possible for them. No one else could have, or would have, done more.

I know how you feel about the vets that you're still paying. Sometimes its so easy to think that you're making their Mercedes payments when you pay those bills.. or their next vacation to Hawaii and here your babies are gone anyway. But you can't keep feeling that way. It'll eat you up inside.

I spent the whole morning reading about Miles (I feel like I've known him his whole life now) from when you first got him right up until the end of his remarkable life. What a treasure he was! Is.. because you know he's in God's hands now and he loves them more than we ever could.

You can't let this get you down! Miles' life was worth so much more!! After all he had been through, his body was weakened, his kidneys were too small and his nine lives were just worn out. No doctor could have saved him, I'm sure, but you gave it your all, just as he did.

You were spared the agony of watching him fail. He hid that from you, knowing that you'd be so upset, so please don't torture yourself. Handling the grief is hard enough on its own.

Console yourself with the knowledge that your living little ones need you so much. Be strong for them. They grieve, too, and they need you.

[Karen]

But that's not the only way you'll remember them, their imprints in your eart will last longer than the bills. The important thing is to keep the rest of the ark - and you - healthy. I'd keep a close watch on Ocean, and if he's acting at all unwell, get him to the vet, and explain that Ocean and Miles were both at the vet at the same time for emergency care, and you're worried that there might be some lingering infection ...