Oh Logan, I'm so sorry to hear this. But, along with Meg, I know exactly what you're going through since Peanut's tumor is getting worse - I can tell by the amount of blood in her urine.

I would suggest that you do whatever you can to make Mimi comfortable and let your heart guide you the rest of the way. Either she will die peacefully and you will find her afterwards, or she will give you some kind of sign that it is time. My first thought about leaving her outside was "if that's what she wants, that's what she gets" but the thought of having her wander off and die is just too horrible, so I would keep her inside also, and if the upstairs closet is where she prefers to be then that would be good enough for me - as long as I knew where she was.

She could have arthritis making it painful when you pick her up. I gave Tubby Cosequin for his arthritis and it seemed to help a bit. Also, when Tubby was at his worst, I finally got him to eat a bit of baby food. What I did was put the dish in the microwave for about a minute to make it warm, then I put the baby food on the warm dish. That way it was warm - making it more smelly so they're more likely to eat it - but it wasn't HOT which wouldn't have been good. Tubby preferred the beef and turkey mushy baby food. The only other thing I can think of to stimulate her appetite is prednisolone. It's a steroid which makes them hungry and usually you have to worry about them gaining weight when they're on it, but it sounds like that would be a good thing in Mimi's case.

I'm just so very sorry this is all happening right now. You've been through so much in the last few months with losing precious pets, and this is the last thing you need right now. I will be hoping and praying for a positive uppydate, but know that we are here for you no matter what the news. {{{hugs}}}