Catty I so empathize with you on this, I have Crohns disease, which means I look fine on the outside but I am not always fine on the inside. People will see me park in a handicap zone(with a tag of course0 and you wouldn't believe the comments I get because I am not in a wheelchair or on crutches! If someone knew the amount of pain it took to just walk into the store etc so that I could go home and lie down anyway ADD in adults is often misdiagnosed, my hubby Jaspers went for yrs without a diagnosis and He is on Zoloft and a few other meds to combat his disease. Hang in there it may take a few tries of mixing meds and doses to help you "get it" as you say, but be aware some of us are just naturally cluttery! My motto? a clean desk is the sign of a bored mind! LOL just a bit of humor to help you not be so hard on yourself. Good luck and Blessed Be!