Thanks, Betty.

I have been through more counselling and stuff all my life, and my life HAS improved by being on a certain medication. Believe me, I am not pro-med - but after being off it for periods of time, and hitting the wall time and time again, I realized I had a 'diabetic brain'...the chemical imbalance was not going to fix itself, no matter what.

So I have contacted my Dr about this...and did some nosing around on the net. Now, I KNOW ADD in adults is a very controversial topic...but I want to explore this.

This early on - I just describe this as similar to being colour blind....I can look at tips for organizing, and even implement one or two - but never for any length of time. It's like all my life there was something I just "didn't get" - and I was unemployable and frantically all over the place as a road musician.

A bunch of this is out of context....along with good advice, and kindly - as you gave - I want my mind to be able to grasp and implement it.

Hard to explain...I can't snap out of it til I understand what "it" is.

Sorry if I am making no sense....thank you so much for replying!
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Catty1