First things first - don't be so hard on yourself. Secondly, getting organized is not necessarily "throwing out the clutter" but merely rearranging it in a way that works for you.

In my job I have to be extremely well organized to be effective - it's a function of my responsibility. I have found the most important task is to prioritize the things that are important. After I have determined what my priorities are, the next step is to focus on those priorities and do my best to complete what I start. Sometimes I get thrown a curve ball, that is, the project I'm working on gets shifted or tossed. In those cases, it is best to let it go and move on to the next important task and focus on it.

Good organization is not a simple thing; it requires flexibility. Our world is constantly changing and we usually need to change with it. For some that is not a hardship; for others, it is excruciately painful. Perhaps you need to spend some time determining how changes affect you. That could shed some light on the situation and help you decide how best you can handle things that disrupt your organizational patterns.

Most important is to not be afraid to ask others for help. If something is unclear and it creates disorganization in your mind, your actions will follow the same pattern. Explain the confusion and ask for clarification and then act accordingly. You will find most people are willing to help and will respect you more for being open and communicating with them.

Please remember that behaviours don't change overnight and give yourself a chance to do your best. Also, please remember to treat yourself when something goes well and you have worked hard to ensure that success. You deserve it!

Cheers