Quote Originally Posted by ILoveMyAbbyGirl
I guess it's my turn, lmao.

Sooo. I'm 17 years old, 5'7'' or so, maybe taller, and 235lbs.

People constantly tell me I'm not fat... the why is the scale throwing these horrible three-digit numbers at me? I've seen people on tv who are 220lbs, and are a lot... bigger than I am, so I'm hoping maybe some of my weight is muscle. I've always struggled with that.

I, too, really want to change my lifestyle and be healthy and most of all skinny. I want to be proud to be seen in a swimming suit, I want to be able to wear tanktops and not be self-conscious of the very, very faint stretchmarks on my arms. I want to be able to wear shorts and not hate my flabby legs. I want to get out of these size 18 pants. I want my mom to stop calling me fat.

I haven't always struggled with weight, I was a normal kid, normal weight, up until middle school I just exploded. I have always wanted to have the motivation to lose weight, but I just don't have it. I get into bad habits where I feel guilty that I'm so fat, so I don't eat hardly anything for two, maybe three days, then I binge. Then I feel guilty for bingeing, so I fast again. I know it's a terrible cycle, but I can't help it.

Reading your posts has encouraged me to go out and bike. I just came back from a 25 minute bike ride with my little brother. The first 5 minutes was biking on flat tires until we got to the gas station, and that was pure hell, let me tell you! My grandma has picked some strawberries for us, so we are off to go get those now, but in a car, lol. She lives over 5 miles away, or else I'd consider it! But I also wouldn't be able to get those strawberries home very safely either, lol.

Good luck everyone. I wish the best for all of you! I'll keep you updated and maybe get some pictures up sometime this weekend.

I can't believe I just told you all how much I weigh...
Megan, did you read my story in one of my posts? I was in the EXACT boat you are in right now. With those measurements and numbers and everything. I know exactly how you're feeling, and I know it seems like sooo much. But make your first goal something small - biking everyday for 30 minutes. After a week of doing it, change something else, and so forth. Make it seem like you're not abruptly changing everything at once, or you will get overwhelmed and quit.

I know you said you knew that binging and then fasting was not good for you, so I won't lecture about that. But please please PLEASE, try to break your meals up. You'll feel less guilty about having 4-5 small meals a day, than one HUUUGGEEE meal every 3 days. And, you'll feel so much better! The feeling of "hey! I'm not hungry, but I'm not stuffed!" is such a content feeling. So eat something for breakfast (do you like cereal?). Depending on what time you get up in the morning, you may need a midmorning snack. Yogurt or fruit? Lunch time, have something with a carb and a protein. Then a snack, if needed. And then by the time your dinner rolls around, you won't feel like you need sooooo much food, hence eating less at dinner.

I'm gonna check up on you periodically... to keep you motivated and to make sure you're moving in the right direction. You've taken the first *right* step, and I am SOOOO proud of you!!!

YAYYYYY MEGAN!!!!