If i had to kill my own meat, I couldn't eat it either because I just couldn't kill an animals. Technically I suppose I am by eatting some, but my not eatting will not save any lifes. I feel that we do not know much about the whole veggys/plants feeling pain, and we do not know for sure, they very well could be feeling pain and they just don't express it like animals. I don't eat a lot of meat, but I do eat enough to get the stuff I need from it.