well I may not have any kids but I can certainly understand the hardship of finding a new daycare - child care service. My sister has went thru Hell and back since she had to put my nephew (now 9) in day when he was a baby. With my younger nephew she even tried a babysitter but then after awhile found out that she let him watch the movie BLADE (he was b/n 2-3) and several other issues.

I'm going to say something that I am sure will make me quite unpopular and unliked but I feel it needs said. I work with a girl who is a few years younger then me and recently had twin boys. She has went completely PSYCHO since having them. They were a little bit early and had to be transferred to a larger hospital for more care (we are a very tiny hospital). She put up a HUGE poster on her back door that said - "WASH HANDS before entering this home." She would tell THEIR family as they left - if you sniffle or hack don't come back! She has her mother in law watch the boys and her mother in law is so scared of her she refuses to watch them by herself so she has to hire 2 babysitters for the days her mother in law watches them. She makes her babysitter log every thing they do from the time she leaves to the time she comes home. To make it even harder for her to find a sitter - she makes them come into HER home instead of taking them to theirs.


Now this is what caught my attention is that you said you "bust out the door at 2pm." this is exactly what this girl does. She refuses to pick up any extra shifts even tho we worked at least 6 of her weekends while she was on maternity leave and we are very short handed right now. We have had to pick up an extra weekend every 5 weeks since Feb and while the same people sign up over and over - this weekend will be my 3rd to pick up she has picked up 1- 4 hour shift and that was b/c my bosses said to her - hey we worked our tails off while you were on maternity leave. This weekend I have a wedding I have to leave early from b/c she refused to pick up the shift that I am working. She watches the clock up until 4:30 when she can bust out of there and a lot of times she makes it. When she does work a weekend - we work every 5th weekend 12 hour shifts since she is part-time she only works one day before her weekend and one day after her weekend, usually Monday before and Friday after so that leaves Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, depending on what shift she works - Friday and Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. The last time she worked her weekend she came in on Friday in such a rotten mood and was so incredibly nasty to everyone b/c she didn't want to work (mind you everyone else in the dept works Full-time and all but 2 of us have raised kids) that one of the more ballsy girls said -well why don't you just quit? I work in a small yet sometimes EXTREMELY busy xray dept of a small yet sometimes EXTREMELY busy hospital. Sometimes we have late surgeries, accidents, falls, etc that come in at any time of the day that is why we are there. There are times that someone has to stay and help me get my head above water (I am the only tech thus far on 2nd shift). She gets extremely anxious about leaving on time. Now I know it is b/c she is still breast feeding and wants to get home b/c she is so anal they are on such a strict schedule but that doesn't do me any good when I have 5 people to xray and she isn't a whole lot of help.


Now I am certainly NOT saying that this is YOUR behaivor so please don't think I am automatically assuming that you act like this but I know you have said time and time again that you want to be a stay at home mom so maybe this is the push that is needed for that to happen. Maybe you can get certified in child care and watch some other peoples children that are in the same situation you are in now. Maybe you can take some medical term classes and do transcription (altho this is rather time consuming I believe) or something when Josh is home to watch your son. I know whatever you decide will weigh heavy on your life and heart for a time so I wish you best of luck. And please take this in the spirit it was intended I had no intention of hurting your feelings one bit so please let me know if I did and I will delete my post. [[hugs]]