We Had to put him to sleep

**Rachel** · 06-05-2006, 07:48 PM

Just wanted to let all you who have lost your fur kids, that I am thinking of you this evening. I will light some candles tonight in memory of the ones we have talked about here. These precious fur kids were as blessed in their lives with their guardians as much as they are missed now. Please remember that they are honored too by recovery from the grief that goes with their passing. Their lives were about making you happy. They would want the best for you as you did for them.

God bless little Sissy. May she recover from her loss as well.

**robroy20** · 06-05-2006, 08:12 PM

To all that have helped us get through today,I know you know how much your words help.You have been there and your heart hurt just as ours does.We are the type people that if I see a animal that needs help we stop and do what we can.My heart breaks for our fur kids. Sometimes we pick them and sometimes they pick us,whitch ever we are in for the long haul.Till death do we part.
I am sorry we don't have a digital camera.Jeb has such pretty solid black hair,alot like a poodle without the long nose.He is my little stud man.He thought he was a gigolo.He just didn't have the parts that he needed.But he didn't care.He was always trying,ha,ha..I have to go..Thank you all..Your friend Bob Roysdon in Peoria,Az.

**robroy20** · 06-06-2006, 06:59 AM

I hope I havn't wore out my welcome.I have been up since 3 am.This time in the day is the worst for me.Jeb was always by my side.I am dieing a little bit at a time.This should be a happy time .We are having a pool put in and its almost done.We wanted to play with the kids.
I see Jeb will have alot of buddies to play with,Honey,Zipper,Hannah,Angus,Henry,Lilly,Murphy. I am crying so hard I am loosing the names of Jebs new friends.He just loved other dogs and kittys.Jeb is the type he wanted everybody to get along.
Well I got to try and do something.You are such good people,and your masters are ok to...Love to all of Jebs new buddies..Bob

**Sudilar** · 06-06-2006, 07:42 AM

Let me join the long list of having recently passed PT furbabies. My heart goes out to you. I know exactly how you feel. I lost both Killian and Shiloh within a seven month time span. I had counted on Shiloh to pull me through the loss of Killian, but apparently Killian wanted her with him. (STILL big tears!)
It takes a long, long time to smile again. You are not alone. We know how you feel. Little by little, you will cry less and less (takes a long time). However, the love for Jeb will live on forever in your heart. Big Hugs.

**Dorothy39** · 06-06-2006, 07:47 AM

My general feeling is that one cannot wear out their welcome on Pet Talk. It has just created something for me to grab onto in my deep , dark pit of despair.

My hardest time of the day is--the night-----. I dread lights out and going to bed without my dogs. I am not up to getting another dog because , well, that seems like trying to replace the two I lost.

Me and my husband have been married for 35 years this month, yet it seems like only 5 years to me. We're both grieving for our fur kids. We have 3 grown children, and 8 furry grandchildren.

Reading the posts on Pet Talk has really helped me these past two days, like finding a candle in the dark. Never undestimate the power of prayer. I thought I had to go to a Therapist, or, that I was going crazy before figuring out how to post my thoughts.

There are so many caring people on this big planet. They have helped me tremendously, now all I have to do is take one day at a time. It is hard.

Sincerely

Kathy- Dorothy39

**Sudilar** · 06-06-2006, 08:11 AM

Originally Posted by Dorothy39

My hardest time of the day is--the night-----. I dread lights out and going to bed without my dogs. I am not up to getting another dog because , well, that seems like trying to replace the two I lost.

Well now, that sounds like me. Since Shiloh always slept on the bed with me, at my feet, I will no longer let any other furbaby sleep there again. It was her spot.
Right now I have a foster, who sleeps in my room, but on the floor next to my side of the bed. I am weakening, though, to adopting him. No other will replace any of my past furbabies, but life goes on and so many need saving.

**robroy20** · 06-06-2006, 01:38 PM

I have been outside working around my pool.When I come in only Sissy meets me.She is so social,she will lick my face from top to bottom.Then she will go about her business then and only with the last kiss.She has the fastest tongue in the west.Sis will french you so quick ,and then she is off and running..
Dot,I see how much Foxy Jean means to you.I wish I had these magic words that would mend your heart,Only our sweet Lord can do that .Us mortals can help with our kind words and prayers.Foxy Jean is playing with Jeb and our furbabies that have passed over the bridge to heaven..

Sudilar,,You sure do have so pretty kids,Killian,Shiloh have a spot in my heart that is so close to Jeb.I have found so many pets that I wish I would have meet them long ago..All of you are helping Diane and I.

Sissy wants to go outside,,Thanks Bob

**Dorothy39** · 06-06-2006, 02:05 PM

I so enjoyed receiving your kind response, especially reading about Sissy's kisses. Oh, man, I sure do miss those dog kisses!!!

Thank-You for your comforting words, for typing the name of my dog so that I know another human being knows her name. I think she is with Jeb too. Hopefully he is still the stud he thought he was.

We can help each other with words, but our Lord is the refuge in this storm. Tell Diane the same, she is hurting as well.

When ever you feel utter despair, know that there are more of us who feel the same way. Each day is a drudgery. Never feel that you cannot type a few words to a 55 year old living in Charlotte, Michigan. Hey, we are from the same country!!!! Please give Sissy a big hug for me Bob. I am so afraid of loving another dog because, I know , they do not live as long as we want them to. I can't go through another dog's death.

Your contact is like sunshine, honest.

One day at a time--

Dorothy (from the wizard of Oz in 1939)

Kathy Masters, Charlotte, Michigan

**luvofallhorses** · 06-08-2006, 05:09 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss.

((hugs))

**robroy20** · 06-08-2006, 06:00 PM

Hi Dot and the people that have helped me so much.I get a little better with each passing day.Oh I still cry when I find a toy or just a passing throught.
I was thinking about Jeb and when we first got him and he had that 'puppy breath".You all know what I mean.A puppys mouth smells so sweet when they are 3-12 weeks or more.Jeb,Sissy were.It just comes at no extra cost.And oh do I love to smell it.I hope I am not the only one or I am in trouble..ha,ha.
Another good day...Bob

**Dorothy39** · 06-09-2006, 04:17 AM

I'm wondering just how long we can communicate on this thread, as they refer to it.

I always think of you when I get real blue, you know , those moments when the house is still as every one is asleep. Well, everyone in this house is just Larry and I now.

I think of how your voice might sound , I think it is deep and comforting. And, I think of Sissy giving you dog kisses, and Diane needing you.
They are lucky to have a person like you. I guess I am lucky too now.
Because

If I am Dorothy, you have got to be the Scarecrow. hee hee hee
Remember:

We always have the power within ourselves to get back home.

Thank-You for that very first post and helping me out of my despair.

**Rachel** · 06-09-2006, 06:07 AM

Originally Posted by Dorothy39

Remember:

We always have the power within ourselves to get back home.

This is so true, even when it comes to the deep grief experienced with the loss of a companion. When I was at my worst, I knew I needed to stop crying so frequently. In an effort to limit this, I allowed myself to cry and think about my pain of losing Tizzie (my last RB girl) when I was taking a bath. I would sob and sob alone in that bathtub where my tears mingled with the warm bath water. I do admit that some days I purposely took more than one bath, but it allowed me my grief yet forced me to not sink deeper and deeper into a depression at other times. Of course I would think about Tizzie at other times, but I *changed the subject* in my mind when I did. I know this is not a plan that is for everyone, but I just had to work my way out of the black hole.

What was difficult too was being able to remember Tizzie during her healthy years. She suffered during her old age from various ailments, including dementia. Even though most of her life she was a happy, healthy dog, those ailing years were so difficult for her and for me to see her that way. It took a long, long time before memories of the good years would return.

Thinking of all of you, Rob, Diane, Dorothy, Sue, Logan, and others who have posted here.

**Sudilar** · 06-09-2006, 06:20 AM

Originally Posted by Rachel

I would sob and sob alone in that bathtub where my tears mingled with the warm bath water.

Oh Rachel, how true. The shower is also a great place to cry. Waterproof make-up (for those sudden breakdowns during the day) works, too. (Not for you,Bob..LOL) I also would find myself crying on walks while taking the standard path of our past dog walks. Ahh, it is so hard when we lose them, but then I think of how blessed I was to have them in my lifetime. The pain in their passing is as great as the love we have for them. I count on seeing them at Rainbow Bridge, because how can there be a heaven without them? Big group hugs today!!!!

**robroy20** · 06-09-2006, 06:24 AM

Hi Dot,I can see you are feeling much better.And you can find your way home.You have to find the right map.And the map is in your heart.The people that came here have a little piece that you need to mend your heart.,And only then you will be ready to carry on.
My heart is on the mend,and you were the doctor.Its 430 in the morning and Diane is a sleep with Sissy,and oh how I miss Jeb but I will carry on just like you will.
One thing I wanted to tell you .I had Jeb creameated as I want to be also and when I die I want Diane to put me and Jeb in with her and Sis so we can all be togeather..We are such a good family,we have so much love for each other...................I will go now...Bob

**Dorothy39** · 06-09-2006, 07:48 AM

Oh , I owe all of you so much. So very much.

Now I know what how the tin man felt when he was given a heart.

I have to read each post over and over before I start the day, and, yes Rachel, I agree about the bath tub blues, and the showers where as I rain as well.

Thank-You Anna66 for offering the poem, "I'm Still Here"

To all of you listing a post on this thread, I've got to say without a doubt that when my personel friends did not understand me, God gave me many more who did. You have showered me with hope.

To know that you understand and care helps me.

I haven't been able to go for the old dog walk, but you know, I just might do that today.