Audrey, I am so sorry you're going through this. I know you've been struggling with this for a long time. When you do go Monday, DON'T BE AFRAID TO CRY!!!!!! When I had to have my cat put to sleep, it was the second time I had seen that Vet and I was sobbing. I was crying so hard, I could hardly breathe. But the Vet was very compassionate. They know how much these animals mean to us and how hard it is to lose them, as do the staff. No-one will think less of you. There is a considerable amount of pain involved when you lose a loved one and anyone who works in a Vet's Office will understand that. We are all here for you and I know that I am crying with you. You're in my thoughts and prayers.