This is one of the most beautiful things about Pet Talk. We have a place to come and share these deep sorrows with others who we know will understand. I remember when my last poodle went to the RB and I went into work the next day. I felt like an alien. No one at my office at that time even had a pet and couldn't possibly understand the feelings I had. Most of us here I think have gone through what you are facing and we know the pain. Please do not be afraid to cry in front of the vet. He/or she has seen the death of a pet countless times and would totally understand and not expect you to "be brave." Go ahead and cry! I sure did! When you need someone to lean on, please remember us, your friends at Pet Talk. You are in my thoughts and I am so sorry that you are going through this.