*Gulp*

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This is the worst feeling in the world. You would think they'd understand... especially after I lost Nookie. I hadn't officially adopted him yet but EVERYONE knew I was taking him. Well I'll try to say the whole story...(I'm gonna try to leave as many details out as possible, otherwise it will get way too long).

The work environment there is very hostile and nasty. People hold personal grudges and there are so many little cliques of people against certain other people. Its disgusting. I have pretty much always stayed out of all the crap that goes on, but it still wears me out. I have been so stressed at that job that I can't even function like a normal human being. I am always there on my days off helping them out. I never clock in to do that either. Its all volunteer time. I help them out SO much and wear myself SO thin.. then when it comes time when I ask a favor, people kick and scream. If anyone else ever has to come in on their day off (which is rare), they always clock in and get paid. I just feel used there a lot because I care so much.

So yesterday I was driving up to work with my dogs when they called my cell phone. They wanted me to do a counsel with someone who was interested in adopting a certain dog (only a few certain people can do the counsels). I said I'd do it and I was on my way up there anyway to let my dogs meet Spice. When I went in there, Susan asked me why my dogs were there and I told her I was going to adopt Spice. She said "Well there are tons of other people who would want that dog" in a really snotty way. I didn't understand why she was being that way to me but I ignored it.

I left my 2 dogs and Tyler behind the desk while I went to do the counsel and when I came back, my supervisor was glaring at me. She spoke to me like I was in second grade, really condescending and mean. She basically told me she didn't appreciate me bringing my dogs up there because it was "too much". I told her I was doing them a favor and the dogs were only back there for 15-20 minutes so I didn't see what it hurt. She kept repeating that it was too much and I kept repeating that I wasn't planning on leaving the dogs there, but I had already been on my way to work and agreed to do THEM a FAVOR. She was being so mean. Then I got all my dogs on their leashes and was walking by her office and heard her talking really bad about me. It was around then I decided I probably didn't need to be working there anymore.

While I had my dogs with Spice in the auditorium, Nicole came and told me a kitten died on the operating table during the spay and the woman who had adopted the kitten wanted an orange tabby. She said the shelter manager wanted to know if I'd adopt my kitten to the woman. I said I would if she wanted 2 kittens because I really wanted mine to go together. I dont see what the big deal was. We have a lot of orange tabbies that lady could have. She had never even seen or played with mine so there was no reason I should have to give her mine. Well then they got REALLY mad at me. I didn't even know it at the time. But even the shelter manager was saying bad stuff about how I was being difficult. I DIDNT EVEN DO ANYTHING TO ANY OF THESE PEOPLE!!!!

After the dogs met, I went to ask the girl that works in Receiving when Spice might go up for adoption. She shrugged her shoulders and kept walking past me. I had to chase her down the hall asking her questions. I was trying to tell her I didnt' want to take Spice home until Thursday or Friday because Tyler would be adopted by then. But that if he was moving up into adoption that day I would take him. She kept blowing me off so I went up and asked the receptionist to call me if and when they moved him into adoption. She said she would and that she really wanted me to get the dog.

Then I came in today for obedience and Nicole and Nathan were giving me weird looks. Then Nathan told me they adopted Spice out YESTERDAY right after I left. Susan was trying to get revenge on me only because I wanted my kittens to stay together. You guys have seen their pictures, they are so attached. Turns out right when I pulled out of the parking lot, some people came in saying that wanted a poodle mix. Susan went out of her way to get Spice from the BACK.. he wasn't even in adoption. It wasn't the receptionist's fault. She had just gone on lunch.

Susan knew that was the one thing that would rip my heart out. That was such a personal attack. I cannot even talk to that woman because a really big slur of bad words will come out of my mouth. I haven't felt this much hurt in so long. I am in utter shock and disbelief. How can someone have so much hate? She knew how attached I was. Everyone knew. She orchestrated the whole thing, but there were a few others who helped carry it out. The shelter manager gave approval and the girl who works in receiving WHO WAS MY FRIEND AND ACTED LIKE SHE WANTED ME TO GET THE DOG helped too.

I am going in tomorrow to talk to the Operations Director. I am thinking I am going to use my sick days this week and maybe work next weekend and thats it.

One of the people who teaches obedience works at the other no-kill shelter that is sort of near our area (its not in Austin though, its a bit of a drive actually). She offered me a job as an animal care technician at her shelter. I accepted and am going in tomorrow so she can show me around. I will start there in 2 or 3 weeks.

I am so so so so so so so so so hurt that someone I worked with and respected did that to me. The person who I took to and from work every day for 3 weeks when her car was broken. The person who I have covered for so many times.