thank you everyone. today has been going sooo slow and achy. no luck, sore eye/cheek, tears giving me skullache.

we went to four shelters (where one had my zephyra's description wrong), none of my precious kids were waiting or found.

I finally had my friend call the roadkill number for me, nothing came up fit my decsriptions. heart pounded hard all way, trying to fingerspell the whole feature colours & sizes without her misunderstanding me and you ask for three different 'bodies'.

being a passenger most of the day have allowed this is end of the world, what if... and what I can't imagine or what could have happened to them haunt me all day long. kills me. I'm still having a hard time to understand star is really (already) home, my mind is so hefty to remember there is a better hope. I only smiled when I came home to my flithy star, "oh lord, you're HOME." they cannot still be out there somewhere safe!! I'm getting more upset and tearing down all way they let me.

I've also bought home a loan trapper, I'll be setting it up tonight when it gets a bit dark. I think my goldie helper is better, stress-free.

lobodeb, that is crayola, he walked with me half of the day yesterday - he heard something once but it was two in distant cats chasing (fighting?) each other. if I can find someone to, I could.

by the way, I looked through petfinder - nothing there - thanks for reminding me. I'm home, going back out and turn my flashlight on now.