Quote Originally Posted by jenluckenbach
The funniest part of this all, is that I NEVER even considered WILD parties with alcohol and smoking (as I would NEVER go to one of them). My original thought was being in a large group of people where they all know each other, but you do not. Feeling like an outcast while the others all huddle in their little groups having a good time.

Now that catnapper has posted I can explain a little (and Kim, PLEASE do not feel that this is in ANY way your fault!!!!!!!) But I was at her baby shower yesterday. It was a great success, but not for me. I actually sat out on the front stoop for a while crying because I did not fit in. And I was so looking forward to this party. For WEEKS we were counting down the days, and then the old me, the shy one with no self confidence took over. DRAT! I am a failure.

I am so sorry to whine................ Feel free to ignore.
I've done the same thing SOOOO many times!! Your not alone, just keep forcing yourself out there & it gets a little better each time I started going to a small club with friends & I found that helped.. I was the onlyone that didn't fit in, but I kept going anyways. Then one day I was peeled from the bench & forced to dance with a bunch of girls my age.. that sure was freaky!!! I think I was sweeting like a pig & not really dancing.. then I didn't have a choice to dance as they made me by force lol.. after that I was able to relax, still didn't dance often, but I'm more comfortable in a small group of strangers.