It sounds as though you have always been there for everyone else - at the sacrifice of yourself. It is now "YOUR TURN" - take care of yourself first now, do some things that you love.

It is so hard to wrap your head around the idea that "people cannot give what they do not have"......................

I know how disappointing people can be and it hurts.

And, it makes you tired.

I too, send you hugs and also some prayers that things will look up for you.