If you are pregnant, kids are VERY expensive and whether he wants to be a father or not it won't matter, he will still be one. He knew the consequences of how babies are made and chose to take the risks, so he has to assume repsonsibility. If he doesn't want to be a part of the baby's life, that is his loss, but he still owes half of what it costs to raise a baby. If you are pregnant please don't try to take it all on yourself. It's waaay to much for one person to handle if they don't have to, and you know he's the father, if you are, so you don't have to. I understand your feelings of responsibility towards a baby if there is one, and that is great!, but you don't have to do it alone and shouldn't try to take it all on yourself. Even if he never ever sees that baby, he needs to support it, he was there when it was created and he needs to be responsible. If he didn't want a baby he should have taken precautions to avoid it, and deal with the consequences if those precautions didn't work.

I'm so sorry for your situation and finding out those things you did, I know that hurts you all over again, but don't let it cause you to try to carry a burden that heavy all on your own, if it turns out that way. You do need to find out as soon as possible though, so you can gt proper care if that's the case. Good luck to you!