Oh honey, I just went through the same thing with my Smudgie.. He was put down May 7th, he was 10, and I found him at 5 weeks... In the beginning of June, I lost 3 cats within a week..

It still hurts...

The pain does get easier, love, and eventually you will be able to say "Remember when......" without breaking down, you'll be able to smile at the memories...

Smudgie was my prince, he loved to be picked up and he loved to dance the waltz...

I'm here for you..