Oh, dear God, no....missing

[cloverfdx]

I too read your post and it bought me to tears also . I think that had the be the most heart wrenching post i have read on PT in a long time. The good vibes and prayers are still with you.

{{Hugs}}.

[Cinder & Smoke]

These touching passages were lost in another thread and deserve to be seen here,
where they have relevance to Delta and show Tamara's deep love for her Missing Pet.

Delta has been gone a long time, 22 days to be exact.
The odds of him coming home now are extremely slim.
I will forever have to live with the fact that because I didn't triple check that stupid gate, an innocent creature who I adore, paid with his life. I will forever be haunted by the fact that the last hours, maybe days, maybe even weeks of his life were spent alone, afraid, hungry, cold and possibly in pain. In all likelihood he died a horrific death in the jaws of predator. I haven't slept without medication since the day Delta disappeared. The image of him running into a wolf makes sleep impossible. I will never forgive myself for not doing more to socialize him. If I had, maybe he would have been brave enough to find his way home or let someone else catch and bring him home.

The only comfort I can find is that I did everything I possibly could to bring him home. I continue to look, search and advertise for him, despite the long odds of any success. I don't even get to mourn him properly because there is no closure in missing. Delta was only 4. I will spend the next 10 years, potentially his life span, looking at every black and white husky cross I see, just in case.

Tamara ~

Try to hold onto the hope that Delta will return -
we're all Praying that he WILL come home.

NO one, especially God, blames you for his being lost - try to put that thought
out of your mind.

{{{Hugs}}}

/s/ Phred

[luvofallhorses]

I think about you each and every day praying that he will return. Please don't give up hope. (((hugs)))

[Roxyluvsme13]

I'm getting major LES right now. I *know* I just *know* that Delta is out there. I just KNOW!
Major *HUGS* to you, I'll pray extra hard for Delta tonight.

[gini]

Tamara, I lost my one and only dog because someone in my family did not close the gate properly.

Actually we lost two dogs the same day.

Did I blame this person? No, how could I? We are all human and we all make mistakes that later we regret.

My heart goes out to you, but please, don't beat yourself up - your other pups need you and love you.

I will continue to pray.................for Delta and for you.

[Glacier]

Tamara ~

Try to hold onto the hope that Delta will return -
we're all Praying that he WILL come home.

NO one, especially God, blames you for his being lost - try to put that thought
out of your mind.

{{{Hugs}}}

/s/ Phred

Thanks, Phred and everyone else. I am trying. Some days are better than others. I miss the little goofball terribly. I thought I didn't interact with Delta much since he was so hard to handle, but since he vanished, I've noticed some gaping holes in my daily schedule that were his time. He may not have let me pet him very often, but we interacted in lots of other ways every day.

I'm still looking for him, calling his name ect. Whenever I go somewhere, I check to make sure his posters are still up and I renewed the newspaper ads today.

Thank you again. Your support has been invaluable to us.

[cyber-sibes]

((((((hugs)))))))
You are one of the most compassionate, caring people I know, of course this wasn't your fault. And Delta may well be doing fine on his own, try to envision him curled up snoozing peacefully, or standing on a rock, looking around. You might see him again, you don't know that anything bad has happened for sure. All you do know is that he's on his own right now. He probably doesn't think he's "lost." I'll keep praying for his return, of course, and that you can find some peace of mind.

[chocolatepuppy]

Continued prayers Tamara, that Delta will be back home with you. {hugs}

[Pawsitive Thinking]

Your post breaks my heart.....I know we are all 1000% behind you in your search for Delta.

As others have said, please try to hold onto the thought that he will be back home with you soon. Big hugs to you all

[Daisy and Delilah]

When searching and searching my heart for something to say to you Tamara. I basically seem to be at a loss for words. I just hope you know how much I respect you and how much all Pet Talkers respect you. I personally don't know how you do what you do and without complaint. I find it difficult to give my two dogs enough attention so I certainly can't fathom giving enough attention to 20+ dogs. I know your heart breaks right now and mine breaks for you. It's easy for me to tell you not to let this bother you but being the person you are, I know this isn't possible for you. I still pray for Delta to return every day and pray for you and Stuart to have the tremendous strength you need to get through this. God Bless you both and I'll keep hoping and praying that that handsome boy returns home soon.
{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}