Oh, dear God, no....missing

[DogLover9501]

I wanted to let you know that I have been thinking of Delta, and checking for updates. Just haven't been posting.

Please come home, Delta!

[Cataholic]

I still am praying for Delta's return. Please hold on to hope.

[Crazy-Cat-Lover]

I am still praying for Delta's safe return.

[anna_66]

Tamara, after reading one of your posts in another thread (it broke my heart) I'm so sorry to hear that your having such a hard time sleeping. Of course I can't say I blame you and can't imagine what it would be like to be in your shoes.
I'll always be thinking of you and hoping that Delta's fate isn't what you fear and that some how someone took him in and he's safe and sound. Please don't blame yourself, it is not your fault.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}
Anna

[Jadapit]

I read that thread also Tamara. It had me in tears. Remember when Diamond was hurt at the baseball field? I felt so bad, I felt it was my fault. You replied to me telling me it wasnt my fault that things happen sometimes. Its the same with Delta, it wasnt your fault please dont blame yourself. There is no doubt how much you love your dogs and how well they are taken care of.

I'm so sorry you cant sleep. You have been in my thoughts each and every day. (((Hugs)))

[cloverfdx]

I too read your post and it bought me to tears also . I think that had the be the most heart wrenching post i have read on PT in a long time. The good vibes and prayers are still with you.

{{Hugs}}.

[Cinder & Smoke]

These touching passages were lost in another thread and deserve to be seen here,
where they have relevance to Delta and show Tamara's deep love for her Missing Pet.

Delta has been gone a long time, 22 days to be exact.
The odds of him coming home now are extremely slim.
I will forever have to live with the fact that because I didn't triple check that stupid gate, an innocent creature who I adore, paid with his life. I will forever be haunted by the fact that the last hours, maybe days, maybe even weeks of his life were spent alone, afraid, hungry, cold and possibly in pain. In all likelihood he died a horrific death in the jaws of predator. I haven't slept without medication since the day Delta disappeared. The image of him running into a wolf makes sleep impossible. I will never forgive myself for not doing more to socialize him. If I had, maybe he would have been brave enough to find his way home or let someone else catch and bring him home.

The only comfort I can find is that I did everything I possibly could to bring him home. I continue to look, search and advertise for him, despite the long odds of any success. I don't even get to mourn him properly because there is no closure in missing. Delta was only 4. I will spend the next 10 years, potentially his life span, looking at every black and white husky cross I see, just in case.

Tamara ~

Try to hold onto the hope that Delta will return -
we're all Praying that he WILL come home.

NO one, especially God, blames you for his being lost - try to put that thought
out of your mind.

{{{Hugs}}}

/s/ Phred