I feel the same way about my kitty that went to the rainbow bridge last march sometimes I cry even when I think about the good times. But then our little monster that we call Chloe almost a year old, comes into my room and somehow makes me laugh. She is so silly that is why I think to myself Pricilla (my kitty at the bridge) sent Chloe to us. She always seems to be around whenever I am sad or feeling lonesome. So if that can help at all??? Maybe trying to find another kitty the kind of kitty that your little sweetheart would have wanted you to have so that you weren't sad might be the answer????? I do completely understand how you feel. You should look at the little tuxedo kitty on the rescue site. It may be your calling to save this little guys life???(((Hugs)))) to you and your husband.