(((hugs))) How awful and sad. I lost my sweet Rosie girl almost two years ago because she was hit by a truck. She was only three. I found it very hard to deal with, as it was so unexpected, like your loss is. It helped to talk to people, many of them shared stories of their pets, too. I have to say it took a very long time to get through the grief. I wrote poems to her and planted a tree with some of her ashes under it. I call it my Rosie Tree, and it's a comfort just to go out and touch it and talk to her there. After several months, we adopted a new dog and he has helped my heart to heal. I hope you can just hang on through this, someday it will be better.