My computer crashed, so I was unable to post during this extremely difficult time.
Thank you all for your wonderful prayers and thoughts. I still cannot bring myself to read them all. I will soon. I am still having a problem dealing with Shiloh's death.

Let me continue where I left off. We were to bring Shiloh in on Saturday for a final evaluation of her bladder. We were told at the Thursday vet visit to be ready to send her to RB on Saturday. At this point, she still could not eat anything and she was throwing up any water that she drank. The pills were useless because they came right back up. I continued to sleep all those final nights next to Shiloh on the floor in whatever room she wanted to be in. She was up most of the nights, she could not get comfortable. She was still able to go out in the yard, but she could not walk far distances. I began to take her on hour long car rides throughout the area. She loved that. Oh, how I loved this dog!! (crying again now....sorry). She still could not eat anything, nor did she want to eat anything...and I tried EVERYTHING.
Saturday came. The vet checked her and her bladder grew a bit more. Her (2nd vet) recommendation was euthanasia also. However...there was one more thing to try...an injection to try and help her eat to hold down her pills. So we grabbed at straws and went with the shot. We would have her a little while longer. We continued with the car rides, constant attention, sleeping next to her, petting her. To our great disappointment, the shot did nothing and the inevitable was going to have to happen on Monday. We tried to prepare ourselves for it again. This was the hardest thing in the world to do..again. Monday came, her appointment was for 10:00. The end was near and it was SOOOO HARD. We brought her in. The vet checked her and said there was no change. She also had very large lymph glands in her neck and on her leg. Her legs were swelling also. The vet said that he thought that she also had lymphoma, too (another death sentence).
We held her close (oh so close), I called her name as the needle went in and she looked up at me with those great big loving eyes...then she closed them and was gone. It was so quick....her heart stopped....the vet said that she
was ready to die, she went so fast.
I can't describe how I feel. I hurt so badly. This is the first time that I do not want another dog. I want SHILOH back and only her. I was NOT ready to lose her, she was too young (7 years old). To this day, I still can't even begin to get over her passing.

Thanks for listening. You are all angels!! Thanks again and always for your wonderful support and encouragement. You guys are the BEST.

Sue