Thank you all, once again. I know it will get better and easier, but right now, I feel like my heart is breaking into pieces, and my husband and Helen are the same way. I'm not sure that his children even know yet that she is gone, although they knew it was going to happen, just not when.

Jessica, I appreciate your starting this thread. I simply could not do it yesterday, nor do I think I could have today, either. It's too "easy" now, not worrying every second about if she's ok, if she needs help getting up, if some dog (sweet Goldens) has stolen her bed, if she needs me......I keep looking for her, and poor Lilly is so accustomed to me saying "get off of Murphy's bed" and now I'm not saying that. I just thought that she would be one of those "miracle" dogs that lived longer than expected, and perhaps she did, but I was already planning for a huge birthday celebration for her on Feb. 14, when she would have turned 16 years old. I am so selfish. So many of you have lost your loved ones far too early, before they got to their "senior" years. How lucky we were to have her for so long. I would have liked to have had her for a while longer.

Logan