First off, I just wanted to thank everyone who gave me well wishes.

Things are not getting any easier. We are putting the house up for sale in a couple of weeks and he has already started dividing our stuff.

I have no place to go. I cannot afford an apartment, and I have to split up the cats- god how I don't want to.

I still can't believe that the past 10 years of my life just went down the tubes. I feel stupid, like how could I let this happen?

And yet again, I have to go to work, and pretend like nothing is wrong, meanwhile I have this inside, I feel like my heart is gone. I don't know what a true smile is, or happiness. I don't remember it at all.

I have no one to cry to and hold me, hug me, anything. I do this alone. But I guess I better get used to this whole alone thing-it will consume my new life.

I'm so sorry to be such a downer. It just gets harder the more real it becomes.

-Michelle