Oh, my gosh. This is becoming far too common, but, it's never anything short of heartbreaking when it's happening to you or someone you know. I don't know you well, but, I know what that can feel like. Or at least, what it felt like for me. It's different for every person, but, i want you to know that I will be thinking of you and hoping that you can find your strength to get you through this. I'm so sorry to hear that your family is going through this. Kari