Shiloh has bladder cancer

[ChrisH]

Sue, no words can express how my heart breaks for you.

Please God watch over dear Sue, comfort her and give her the strength she needs to get through.

{{Hugs}}
Chris

[dogzr#1]

Godspeed Shiloh, have fun with your brother! R.I.P sweet Shiloh (((((((HUGS)))))))

[tatsxxx11]

Oh God, no I have no words Sue, just tears, more tears an unbearable pain in my heart for my dear friend's tragic loss. Please, please God watch over over dear Sue and comfort her and give her strength to get through this time of unbearable sadness. It's unimaginable that both our beloved Killian and Shiloh have left for the Bridge Sue, you know my cutie Cody is there right beside Killian, welcoming her dear friend home. Killian, watch over your sweet sister and send down your love to comfort your Mom, please.
We love you, Sue. I'm so, so sorry
Sandra and Star

[Sudilar]

My computer crashed, so I was unable to post during this extremely difficult time.
Thank you all for your wonderful prayers and thoughts. I still cannot bring myself to read them all. I will soon. I am still having a problem dealing with Shiloh's death.

Let me continue where I left off. We were to bring Shiloh in on Saturday for a final evaluation of her bladder. We were told at the Thursday vet visit to be ready to send her to RB on Saturday. At this point, she still could not eat anything and she was throwing up any water that she drank. The pills were useless because they came right back up. I continued to sleep all those final nights next to Shiloh on the floor in whatever room she wanted to be in. She was up most of the nights, she could not get comfortable. She was still able to go out in the yard, but she could not walk far distances. I began to take her on hour long car rides throughout the area. She loved that. Oh, how I loved this dog!! (crying again now....sorry). She still could not eat anything, nor did she want to eat anything...and I tried EVERYTHING.
Saturday came. The vet checked her and her bladder grew a bit more. Her (2nd vet) recommendation was euthanasia also. However...there was one more thing to try...an injection to try and help her eat to hold down her pills. So we grabbed at straws and went with the shot. We would have her a little while longer. We continued with the car rides, constant attention, sleeping next to her, petting her. To our great disappointment, the shot did nothing and the inevitable was going to have to happen on Monday. We tried to prepare ourselves for it again. This was the hardest thing in the world to do..again. Monday came, her appointment was for 10:00. The end was near and it was SOOOO HARD. We brought her in. The vet checked her and said there was no change. She also had very large lymph glands in her neck and on her leg. Her legs were swelling also. The vet said that he thought that she also had lymphoma, too (another death sentence).
We held her close (oh so close), I called her name as the needle went in and she looked up at me with those great big loving eyes...then she closed them and was gone. It was so quick....her heart stopped....the vet said that she
was ready to die, she went so fast.
I can't describe how I feel. I hurt so badly. This is the first time that I do not want another dog. I want SHILOH back and only her. I was NOT ready to lose her, she was too young (7 years old). To this day, I still can't even begin to get over her passing.

Thanks for listening. You are all angels!! Thanks again and always for your wonderful support and encouragement. You guys are the BEST.

Sue

[G.P.girl]

oh i'm so so sorry i cant even begin to imagine your loss
RIP Shiloh

[ramanth]

Kia is seven.....

Oh Sue, I'm so very very sorry. My heart is breaking all over again. *HUGS*

[Ginger's Mom]

Oh Sue, I know how hard it must have been to have shared all of that with us, but I am so glad that you did. What a wonderful and loving mom you were to Shiloh to the very end. {{{Hugs}}}

[Rachel]

I am still having a problem dealing with Shiloh's death.

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I can't describe how I feel. I hurt so badly. This is the first time that I do not want another dog. I want SHILOH back and only her. I was NOT ready to lose her, she was too young (7 years old). To this day, I still can't even begin to get over her passing.

Sue, I think I understand your feelings. After my Bailey was gone, I was literally sick to my stomach with grief. My husband and friends were so worried about me, they encouraged me to get a puppy. I wasn't ready but I also wasn't able to make decisions for myself...I went through the days in a haze and went along with the *getting a puppy* idea a mere 40 days after losing Bailey. As a consequence, Hannah and I did not bond. It was just awful. I had a puppy whom I didn't think I could love. It took her getting seriously ill for the *love gene* to kick in and I knew that I didn't want to lose her. In the final analysis, it did work out I did love again, but I do understand that feeling of not wanting another dog. When I lost my Tizzie, I took my time to recover. After six months, I found myself looking at the dogs at HUA website. It was very gradual, and the feelings of wanting to adopt came and went. When the feelings ebbed, I just let up looking, I put in requests and then cancelled them at HUA. A coworker of my husband said she was taking a recently adopted dog back to the shelter and did I want to see him. I said sure, bring him over, seeing no harm in seeing the dog, and afterall, I didn't even want a male. I had no intention of keeping him when she suggested I could keep him for the weekend, but it took only a matter of hours for the *love gene* to kick in and the rest is history and Tucker found his forever home.

Sue, you will never *get over* Shiloh's passing. It is part of your very soul. Don't force yourself to do anything. But know that there is a tiny seed buried deep within you that can sprout and grow and let new love develop and thrive. It will happen when you least expect it. It will happen despite your sadness, your pain, your fear, your depression. You don't have to believe in it because it believes in you. You don't have to look for or try to find it, just try to recognize it when it starts to stir. Until then know that it's okay to mourn, okay to be true to the loves of your life.