So sorry for your loss, even when we know it is the kindest thing to do, it's hard, isn't it? i hope you find having Sasha's ashes a comfort. When my Rosie was killed by a car, my husband surprised me with having her cremated, and we buried some of her ashes under a little blue spruce tree, along with some treats. We read poems to her and prayed. It's been 1 1/2 years and I love to go out to Rosie's tree and talk to her. We waited several months before looking for new companion. When it's the right time and the right dog, you'll know it.