Im sorry about Mickey
As I was saying in another thread, the not knowing can really get to you.
We had one that never came home, we looked for months.
He came to us as a stray, we took him in, vetted him and then he was gone.
I always wondered where / what then I just told myself, he must of moved on, or went back to where he come from.
I am sorry for your loss. How long has he been gone?
Im sending thoughts of comfort for you today.