I am new to PT but upon hearing your story, my heart hurts for you. These Kittys are our babies, they depend on us and we love them as children. I am so very sorry for the pain and heartache you have to bear. I honestly believe that God does not let the little creatures suffer. Soon Katie will be running and playing in Cat heaven with all the other wonderful kitty's. Try to be strong and know that Katies loved you and that you have many memories of her and you together.