I hope I've conveyed my gratefulness to you all for listening and offering advice/support. (((hugs)))

I know it'll work out. I actually feel better emotionally today. Haven't cried yet, yay!

I have called my parents to see if I can come by after my orientation (tomorrow) to talk. I'm going to see if they can make me a loan or if they can help co-sign on a loan so that I have money to catch up and to put in savings "just in case".

I'm going to present it as a business propostion, being honest about where I am, and what I'm willing to do to pay every cent back. I'm looking into some at-home work I can do to suppliment my paycheck to ensure I'll have enough from now on and will be able to pay them back monthly.

PCB, thanks so much for your concern. I still love God. I'm just hurt and confused. I still believe and I know He's here. I just don't understand all this and know that when its over, maybe I will. (((hugs)))