Kelly, I wish I had some advice for you, but I don't know what to tell you in this situation. I wish things were better for you. I wish you weren't living alone......though I know you like your independance, the fact is, you NEED someone right now. You are fortunate to have a good mother, willing to take you in. I wish she would allow you to bring the cats too...but listen. If you keep your faith in God strong, I know He would arrange something for the cats. You shouldn't be pulled into a 'life trap' because you have pets. I don't know if you would like me saying this...I know how very dear your cats are to you, BUT...you do need to be with someone in this situation. Things are getting hard for you, and at such times, you need family to fall back on. I hope there would be someone willing to care for your cats temporarily until you are back on your feet.

Now...about what you said regarding God in your last thread....you said that you don't want anyone talking you out of it, BUT...I was honestly very saddened to read your feelings. I am not in your shoes and definitely can't feel what you are feeling, but Kelly, honestly, I do believe leaving God or turning from Him would make matters worse for you. If there's anyone that can HELP you right now, it is God...the One who takes care of the provisions of all of us. Don't turn away from God. Remember the purpose of life. None of us are here forever. God made illness, hardships, death, etc. as a means to test us. There are millions and millions of people throughout the world that are in even worse situations. Don't think God is 'picking' on you. Everyone goes through trials in life, and God rewards those who bear the pain with patience. If you realize that life in itself is a test...that it is not forever and is going to end one day, you would realize God's purpose is not to torture someone. It is to test His beings, or to tell them something. Turning away is not the answer.

I know things are hard for you right now, and that at times like this, it becomes difficult to see things from a positive light, but remember...after every storm, the sun shines again. Keep your faith strong, and pray and pray. If you are sincere, I know God's help will come. It is hard, I know...but do your best, and be patient. We're all here for you at times of difficulty. You are in my prayers.