*..deep sigh..* - first, thank you michelle for the quick update made here.

yesterday with so much things going on, I was having so much pain and did not realize I took pain killer pills more than what my body could handle. but I'm all okay now, I'll have things worked out and I'm trult sorry if I've worried, turned off some of you.

my mind's kinda of still fuzzy but here's star update; she's still being hospitalized at doctor coast, under urgent care. thy think they needed to keep her for a few more days. I just gave them a call, check on star - I missed them, I was too late - the office closed. I'll try them again first thing in morning.

I coukdn't stop thinking about her, dread checking my pager if I've gotten any message(s) from them about her. while I was there yesterday in the backroom, ICU - our last moments, I talked to her through the cage bars, leaning my head on bars, tearing at my little not-moving star long before I realize I've left the bar marks on my forehead, heading home.. it's harder than being home without her. they almost, by mill-second, had her kindey replacing yesterday morning on the table without permitting me to come in. I didn't know where my heart went.

with my hefty heartweighting alng with appreciation, please know I thank you so much for making a bright side I could come back to look at. once again, very sorry.

..gina & my lone star..