Oh Michelle,
I wish I could give you a big hug! You did what was best for Lilith because you loved her. It is a hard decision to make but you did it unselfishly and only thought of her. You shouldn't try to second guess yourself, although I have done it myself. it is so hard to lose one of your babies. I have lost many and it never gets easier. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. i know how much your heart hurts and mine hurts for you. Please know that I am thinking about you. Take care.
melissa