Guido,
Your post brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry for the pain you and Michelle (and Vixen) are experiencing right now. It is a pain many of us know all too well. Lilith's time was entirely too short, **but** and I say this with hesitance as not to offend, she was called home as her 'job' here on earth was finished. YOU were her work, Guido, and she must be very proud to know what an impact she made on your life. She has brought out another kitty lover, one that can go on from here and do many good things for the feline community. So, take your time and grieve, it does get easier. Know that the memories you hold in your heart never leave. Ever. You and Michelle are in my thoughts and prayers.

Johanna
ps, and Gary is a gem, isn't he? Always a kind word to everyone. He could use more manpower on PT, so, I hope you will stick around.