I'm very sorry for your loss...I was a total mess when I had to put my cat Cherry down for poisoning, after the vet determined there was nothing he could do for her...I cannot imagine what it would be like to face other losses so soon! For me the loss was so great, I could not imagine being happy again, but I mourned as long as I needed to, and the pain diminished in time. Keep your faith in the future, and take your time to grieve; don't be surprised at your ability to heal after this tragedy.