L-A
I am so sorry for you, and I understand: I lost my precious Liza about a year and a half ago to kidney cancer. It was a difficult decision to put her down, but I know it was the kindest thing to do. Please have no doubt that you also did the best thing for Smudgie.
I was looking at his pictures and he is indeed beautiful and unique.
You will see him again someday!
And right now he is at the RB, no longer in pain. Probably running around having lots of fun and having tuna for dinner!

Our thoughts are with you,
yorkster, Kedi, Wylie, & Scout