You know this board will never be the same without you, Sandra, but I'm glad you've taken time for yourself to do whatever you need to in order to restore your spirit. No, life will never be the same without the ones you've lost ... but it can be good again, little by little, day by day. Listen to your inner voice and find those things which give you comfort and peace. Those things that don't can be put aside. maybe temporarily, maybe permanently. All those who love you want the very best for you. Keep up the good fight and you will find what that is.