His picture fell off the bookshelf, so I know he's here! He came back to me!

All I can do is look at his picture and say 'I'm sorry'...

When I was 20, my daughter died. When I was 21, I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer and had to have a hysterectomy.. I had just met my husband.. We considered the cats our children because they relied and depended on us the same way... Now I am down to three, and my Russian Blue, Ashes, which was Smudgie's best friend, brother, companion and groomer, is wandering around looking for him and talking in a very 'questioning' voice, almost as if he's saying, 'Mom? Where's Smudgie? I can't find him anywhere! Will he be coming home? SMUDGIE! Where are you??' and it's breaking my heart...

Can cats die of a broken heart? The last thing I need is my 'Ashi Kobiashi' going, too...

Thank you all so much for your heartfelt sympathy, you have no idea what it means to me, none at all.. I've been coming to 'Cat of the Day' daily for about 3 years now... it's like a home now.. Thank you again, so much, I love you all...

I MISS YOU, SMUDGEMAN!