Of course you are among friends, always feel free to share your sadness and your happiness. I am sorry to hear about your Dad. In time it will be easier, but you will always remember. My Dad passed away 20 years ago this year, and I will always remember the date of his passing. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him, but on that date it is especially brought home to me. I hope that as time goes on you will remember the happy memories and not his suffering.