oh gary.. I felt bad that you had to cry over their better life. very hard...but know what? what is golden? they got to have a piece heart of yours to carry around with them! even in a much peaceful place and how rememberance of the mother and boys were lucky to have a golden life.

sometimes it's hard to not choke yourself through sad time where you did the greatest thing for them!

I do hope you'll get visitation rights afterall as well.. that should definitely make you feel better. hey gary, hang in there!