You have to stop beating yourself up. I felt bad starting this thread at first, as I did it before I read yours about having to give them up, but I thought about it and the Found Cats Hotel, did welcome Pouncette's babies into this world. Your home is where they got their start and if you hadn't taken Pouncette in and loved her, fed her and taken care of her, who knows what might have happened to her and ultimately the babies. You have no reason to feel like a fraud!!! I hope that you will hear how things are going for them, but if you don't, please remember that you did all you could for them. Please read my response in your other thread about making a difficult decision.