It is my number one fear. I remember once on Oprah (I think it was Oprah) that they were asking what the number one fear was in the US, and, it was public speaking, even over death. I know it is for me. I'd rather be covered in bees (one of my top fears) than get in front of a group. It's so goofy, but, it's the thing that scares me most. I wish you the best of luck. People always tell me to imagine the crowd in their underwear, maybe that will work for you?